I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in a long while, I do not feel alone.
Part of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I would be doing so for the wrong reason; as a way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights acim. What I’m about to share was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have let you see inside. Don’t want it troubling your mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I could not think of anything that I had said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents’ peace of mind, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
There are other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.
While many of us have been mentioned to believe that prayer requires asking to Lord to greatly help, save your self, fix problems and provide people things in this world, that is not the case prayer nor its purpose. Prayer in A Class in Wonders (ACIM) is very different and very beautiful. More than a track, it is wondrous change of Love and thanks between Lord and His Creations that utilizes the forgiveness process to improve the mind before the Prayer Tune is all that remains. It’s the solution house so understanding correct prayer, and forgiveness, is worth the amount of time in retraining the mind.
Prayer is trading (sharing) a Song of Love and Generation or judgments of the vanity centered on what you ask for (agree with) in the mind. There’s no different way. In the Course, the mind (content) is separate between Lord and the vanity; and you’re picking constantly with a side as cause for effect.
Types (all things of the world) are miscreations sending the ego’s judgmental thought system. We’ve made it up (miscreated this world) and can provide it down anytime by improving your head (forgiveness). True prayer requires this correction of your brain as God has nothing to do with forms.
What Prayer is Perhaps not:
Because you are usually determining, everything you request once you pray is what counts. When you plead in prayer to own Lord repair an application problem with still another kind issue, you are wondering the ego mind for help (not God). Those forms and needs are considered more important than God’s Enjoy that may stay concealed to their education you decide on the illusion.
All outside points (forms) are needs. Different brands are needs, needs, status, problems, sickness, human love (special relationships), presents and targets these days, etc. They are everything you select as replacements for God’s Love and the ego will distort the goal of prayer by using them to further the illusion. Thus, prayer cannot be about “forms” or “needs” in any way.
